Been so long..

Million thoughts running through my mind almost everyday.
Thinking abt work, abt school & abt life.

It's bad. Extremely bad for not having a space to voice out. Instead, keeping everything to myself.
Am not young anymore. Not able to be 100% honest and type everything out, here.
Because you nv know, who will be reading it. Like the least person you could expect.
Example, the other day when I meet up with a girlfriend of mine, and she was asking me why ain't there anymore update on this space?
And I was shock. After many years then I realize WOW she actually read this space. Hahaha

So anw, latest update of myself.
Tmr gonna be the last day of sch! Yes. I'm graduating from Marketing Management Diploma in Kaplan.
Been attending lessons every week and coping with my work at the same time.
Every single month rushing to meet the due date of assignments and exams.
It sucks. Trust me. For the past 8 months, I have been leading a zombie life by lacking of slp and losing out time with my love ones.
Not to mention, NOT GG TO ANY PARTY. That really suck big time.

I mean yes I do have couple days of night life. But I've been controlling myself and limit myself.
Constantly remind myself not to go out and rejecting friends who used to call me out every weekend.
And now guess what, they got tired of calling me as they always give up in disappointment.
My usual reasons will be "nah, work tmr", "nah, rushing for assignments", "nah, got to prepare for exam".

I'm just afraid of getting tempted and not able to control myself.
I can't sacrifice my slp to go out party and be tired the following day at work or sch.
Because I know the priority at the very moment is work and sch.
Who is gonna pay me when I dont work and perform well?

Too much to mention.. anyways, life been good to me. Things has been gg well except for couple of hiccups. 
But still, life is good. Has always been good.
Time flies.. Turning 21 this year and yet not a single plan for my birthday.
So far... I guess I might just leave it as it is. Since my Mom couldn't agree me gg oversea to spend my bday.
So yup. Might as well just stay in Sg and spend another day away.

Nope, not gonna have any bday party(so far that's my plan la). 
I think I got too tired from work and study that I'm LAZY to make any plan for my bday this year.
Anyone were to ask me out, I'll go. 
If not, stay home day it is.

Too much to think abt. Too much to talk abt.


Date: 1st Aug 2013
Time: 2.31am